Trusting the Pause
Happy New Year, Magical Beings!
While many of you were celebrating the New Year, I spent mine in bed with COVID. Ugh. I ended up with a lot of time to reflect, so this week’s newsletter is a little longer than usual. Thank you for your patience and for taking the time to read.
Last Monday (12/29/25), I found out I had COVID. I had never had it before, and honestly, it was a really painful experience. I was angry. I hate being sick, and this was not a quick cold. It was seven full days of being slowed down, uncomfortable, and forced to rest.
What made it harder was knowing how many responsibilities and opportunities I had waiting for me. I have a lot going on right now, and those opportunities require time, effort, and consistency. Suddenly, I could not show up, Covid made me pause.
For those of you who know me personally, you know I am not big on structure. I am much more of a go with the flow person. I like freedom. I do not love planning or the mundane, repetitive parts of life. What I am learning is that many of the opportunities I have been blessed with require structure. They require me to show up at certain times, complete tasks, and stay grounded. That brings up a lot for me.
As I lay in bed sick, I found myself surrendering in a way I had not before. I asked God why this happened. The answer I received was simple. I was ungrounded. My head was in the clouds. I was doing too much. I was not turning off when work was done. I was living in the future instead of the present. My nervous system did not feel safe.
As many of you know, I am also going through a separation and the ending of my marriage. My life is shifting in ways I did not plan for. There is no clear map right now. I have taken a leap of faith, trusting God to guide me forward. While Spirit continues to show up for me, my body is still learning how to feel safe in the unknown. There is fear. There is grief. There is the discomfort of letting go of control.
I have spent years helping others trust their path and witnessing how Spirit guides their lives so beautifully. Walking it yourself is different. This is the first time I truly feel like I am walking the walk, not just speaking about it. That is vulnerable.
Covid did not just slow my body down. It brought emotions to the surface that I had not fully acknowledged yet. Fear. Uncertainty. The weight of not knowing how everything will turn out. Instead of pushing those feelings away, I am learning to sit with them, understand them, and let them soften.
As I write this now, feeling better, I can see the lesson more clearly. We can have everything mapped out in our minds, but God often has something bigger and better than we can imagine. Sometimes the pause is protection. Sometimes rest is guidance. Sometimes awareness itself is the healing.
I am learning to appreciate what has been gifted to me, even when it feels overwhelming. When I look at the women in my family lineage and what they endured, I know I am supported by God, by my ancestors, and by something greater than me. I took a leap of faith, even when it felt terrifying.
I am sharing this in case it speaks to you too. Especially if you are afraid of the future, afraid of letting go of control, or feeling emotionally overwhelmed by change. You are not doing it wrong. Sometimes light comes simply from being honest with ourselves about how we feel.
Weekly Moon Forecast | Jan 5–11, 2026
Here is your energy update as we move through the Waning Gibbous Moon and into the Last Quarter Moon. This part of the lunar cycle invites integration, reflection, and gentle release. Spirit is asking you to slow down, digest what you’ve learned, and let go of what no longer needs your energy or attention.
THE WANING GIBBOUS → LAST QUARTER PHASE
We are in the Waning Gibbous Moon from Monday, January 5 through Saturday, January 10, and we reach the Last Quarter Moon on Sunday, January 11. This is the phase where the emotional intensity of the Full Moon begins to settle, and understanding starts to replace overwhelm.
You may feel less reactive and more aware of what actually matters. This phase is not about taking big action. It is about sorting, simplifying, and gently releasing what feels heavy, outdated, or unnecessary. Spirit is helping you make sense of what came up during the Cancer Full Moon so you can move forward with more clarity.
TRANSITS & SIGNS AFFECTED
This week carries an integration tone for everyone, but Cardinal signs (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn) may feel a strong need to reassess decisions, boundaries, and emotional commitments. What felt urgent last week may now feel clearer.
Mutable signs (Gemini, Virgo, Sagittarius, Pisces) are supported in processing emotions through reflection, journaling, or quiet conversations. Fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Aquarius) may notice resistance around letting go, but Spirit encourages trust in the release process. You are not losing ground.
You are making space.
Spiritual Focus for the Week
At the core of this week, a lot of people’s feelings are getting hurt. There’s a sense of vulnerability, and not being met with the same level of care or reciprocity. Many people are scared to be vulnerable right now. They’re scared to share how they really feel because they’re afraid of getting hurt.
So if you put yourself out there this week, if you shared something really vulnerable, and you were met with anger, judgment, or you were gaslit about how you felt, I want you to tend to yourself. Lick your wounds. Talk to a therapist. Work with someone you trust. And most importantly, know that your feelings are valid.
Even if you’re wrong, your feelings are still valid. They’re coming from somewhere. You were trying to be authentic. You were trying to be real. Sometimes people just don’t know how to receive that kind of vulnerability.
And this can go both ways. Maybe someone tried to be vulnerable with you, and you got defensive. Maybe you didn’t hold space the way you wish you had. That happens too. We’re all human.
This is a week of being intimate with yourself. Of tending to emotional wounds. Of apologizing if you lashed out in response to feeling exposed. Of taking responsibility where needed, without shaming yourself.
That’s what this card is really about. Vulnerability. Wounds. Accountability. And learning how to be gentle with yourself and others while everything feels a little raw.
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This membership came to me as guidance from Spirit during a time when I often felt scattered and unsure of how to trust my intuition. The universe showed me that the moon cycle is a natural rhythm that supports manifestation, healing, release, and alignment. I created this space so that anyone who feels called can move through the lunar cycle with more clarity, consistency, and connection to Spirit.
This membership is for you if you want to trust your intuition, crave spiritual structure, or need a supportive space to stay grounded. Members share that they feel more connected, more intuitive, and more centered in their lives. If you’ve been wanting a space to grow with the moon and reconnect with your inner voice, the Purple Healing Membership is here for you. It’s $80 per month or $60 per month when paid yearly. Also, Purple Healing members receive 20% off all services, programs, and mentorships as a thank-you for being part of this community. You can sign up by texting 301-219-0120 or emailing alexandravictoriahealer@gmail.com
Thank you for being here and letting me be part of your spiritual journey. I’m grateful for you. I hope this week brings clarity, grounding, and healing where you need it most.
Love you 🤍
Alex